This is an update of a blog I
wrote last summer.
I have been pondering loss a
lot recently, watching the heartbreaking carnage and devastation which is going
on in Gaza right now.
I've been thinking about how
we, as observers, are experiencing the losses our Palestinian brothers and
sisters are having to cope with day by day, hour by hour.
I know what it's like to lose
a child. But in my case the little girl
was born dead and I had never had the opportunity to develop a relationship
with her outside of the womb. As any
mother will tell you though, we certainly did develop a deep bond, through the
8 months I was carrying her, and losing her was almost too much to bear. I could actually feel my heart breaking as
the very lovely male midwife explained there was no foetal heartbeat, the baby had
died, and we would now have to go through a very emotional labour and birth,
knowing the only conclusion of that experience, would be me saying goodbye to
my son or daughter.
So, I know what it is like to
lose a child in those circumstances.
But I cannot begin to imagine
the sense of abject, incomprehensible devastation of losing a son or daughter,
who was alive and happy and well, a few hours ago, and has been killed, perhaps
horribly maimed so that he or she is not even recognisable now, because a
country has decided to inflict war on your people, misery on your family,
extermination on your child.
Who could begin to understand
what that must feel like, apart from other grieving mothers and fathers in
Gaza.
But of course, I am
hurting. Like millions of others around
the world, I feel a gaping wound open up, every time I see another son or
daughter lying lifeless in the arms of the mother who cherished them, or the
doctor who tried everything they could think of, to try to save them.
In the original article on
Grief and Loss, I used a number of scenarios to explain what is going on at
each stage of the grieving process. Now I am going to add in,
what is probably happening when we are experiencing viewing these awful,
mindless acts of death and destruction.
To try and make sense of that
which is shocking us every time we see another image.
Many of us will have heard of
a theory that states there are 7 stages of loss and grief (some psychologists
say 5). The belief is that we go through
7 different phases of dealing with any loss in our lives, and this theory relates
to all kind of loss, from the relatively mundane, such as losing our car keys,
to the enormous losses we all have to face in life, such as the breakdown of
important relationships and the death of cherished loved ones.
Although these stages go
generally in order, we may find ourselves hopping back to previous stages, and
if people get stuck on a particular level, this is when there can be a sense of
hopelessness, this is often the point at which someone will consider
counselling to help move them on.
I will try and explain
what is happening when we experience any sort of loss, including loss
experienced by someone we care about or feel connected to. Because the human brain is full of mirror
cells, which enable us to empathise and experience other people's pain as if it
were happening to us.
Here are the examples then:
- losing your house keys
- losing a job
- end of a relationship
- witnessing the death of a child in Gaza
The 7 Stages
1) Shock
You're simply stunned by the
event of the immediate loss.
Inability to even comprehend
what has happened, senses in temporary shut-down.
"God!!" "Shit!!"
2) Denial
Inability to accept what's
happened. "Everything's fine! "This can't be happening!"
Keys - They're here
somewhere, pocket, bag, kitchen table!
Job - They can't sack me,
they've made a mistake, someone will come in and take us over!
Relationship - She hasn't
actually left me, she'll be back!
Death of Palestinian child - It's not as
bad as it looks. The pictures are all
doctored. There's two sides to every
story. It's more complicated than people
think. Distraction techniques to relieve
symptoms of stress, such as watching reality TV or reading celebrity gossip
magazines. Using drugs or alcohol to numb the pain. I don't understand the situation in the Middle East. I don't like politics.
3) Anger
Lashing out, losing emotional
and physical control, looking for someone or something to blame for the loss.
Keys - Who moved my keys!
This always happens when you make me late!
Job - It's the managers'
fault for losing contracts! I blame
immigrants! I hated that job!
Relationship - She never
loved me! She only wanted me until
someone better came along!
Death of Palestinian child - It's all
politicians fault!! IDF/Hammas are to
blame! Arguing with people online.
4) Bargaining
Making internal deals with
yourself or someone else, or with God.
If the situation changes, the outcome will change. Pledging to make sacrifices for a better
outcome. Revisiting the physical place
of loss in the hope of a different outcome.
Keys - I had them in the kitchen, they must be
there! OK, I'll pick up your mother, now
where's my keys!
Job - I'll take a pay
cut. I'll work longer hours. Don't sack me, sack them!
Relationship - I'll
change! Marry me! Let's have a baby!
Death of Palestinian child - Being
completely preoccupied with media, in the hope of positive news. Cutting off
friends and family who don't sympathise with the suffering. Going to church,
lighting a candle and saying a prayer.
5) Guilt
Taking on all the blame for
the loss.
Keys - I should have put them
on the hook. I should have got a spare
set cut.
Job - It's because I had time
off for my bad back. It's because I'm
49.
Relationship - I took her for
granted. I mess up every relationship I
have.
Death of Palestinian child - I should be
there in Gaza trying to help. I should
be more vocal than I am. I should
appreciate my own children more. I should have voted in the last election.
6) Depression
Overwhelming sadness,
physical and emotional withdrawal from life and family and friends, loss of
hope, despair.
Keys - I can't be bothered to
look any more.
Job - I'm never going to find
another job. I'm on the scrap heap now.
Relationship - No-one else
will ever want me. She was the only one
for me.
Death of Palestinian child - The world is
heading towards Armageddon. All world
leaders are corrupt. Ordinary people can't overpower governments. (There may be a return to the denial phase at
this point, distraction with drink, drugs, sexual promiscuity, reality TV,
shopping)
7) Acceptance
Coming to terms with what's
happened. Acknowledging the impact of
the loss while recognising life has to move on.
Appreciating how valued the object, situation or person was and
ultimately a sense of hope that there will be happy times again in the future.
Keys - I guess I'd better get
another set cut after work then.
Job - Let's organise a
leaving party, and stay in touch after the redundancies.
Relationship - We had some
good times, but it just wasn't meant to be. Joining dating sites.
Death of Palestinian child - Joining
groups which share your views and have positive plans. Co-operating to make an effective
protest. Boycotting Israeli goods and
companies associated with the occupied territories. Finding places to purchase
Palestinian goods to support their economy. Donating money to a worthy charity.
Thinking about practical ways society can be made better, safer, more secure
for that region and all children everywhere. Creating a memorial.
Of course, some losses are
much easier to come to terms with than others, but the belief is, that we will
still go through each of these stages as we process the emotions associated
with the loss. So in some cases we'll go
through all 7 stages in one hour or one day, in more devastating circumstances,
it will take months or even years to feel like life is moving on.
Sometimes, people might find they always get stuck at the same stage of grief, such as anger or bargaining or guilt, and whether they're dealing with failing an exam, or losing a train ticket, or having an argument with their spouse, or missing out on promotion at work, they just can't seem to process the loss beyond that stage. And that can be a good indication to get extra support, and go and talk to someone about what keeps happening. Because if we can't fully process loss, it's harder to commit to things in the future, without this fear of having to deal with an ending one day. And that fear of loss and endings, might not be conscious, so we recognise what's going on in our minds and hearts, it could be completely unconscious, and we don't even know why we are always the the one who dumps the other one, in relationships, or why we always walk out on a job.
Sometimes, people might find they always get stuck at the same stage of grief, such as anger or bargaining or guilt, and whether they're dealing with failing an exam, or losing a train ticket, or having an argument with their spouse, or missing out on promotion at work, they just can't seem to process the loss beyond that stage. And that can be a good indication to get extra support, and go and talk to someone about what keeps happening. Because if we can't fully process loss, it's harder to commit to things in the future, without this fear of having to deal with an ending one day. And that fear of loss and endings, might not be conscious, so we recognise what's going on in our minds and hearts, it could be completely unconscious, and we don't even know why we are always the the one who dumps the other one, in relationships, or why we always walk out on a job.
In terms of death and mourning, as a general guide,
psychologists and counsellors would expect it to take about 2 years to come to
terms with the death of someone close, who is actually in our lives, a parent
or grandparent, sibling, partner, child or close friend. When the first set of anniversaries come
around, their birthday, wedding anniversary, anniversary of their death, we can
find ourselves back at the anger stage for a while. By the second anniversary, the sense of loss
will usually have lessened considerably and be replaced with some level of
hope. When people are still deep in
mourning, 2 years on from the death, some benefit might be gained from getting
help with coping with the sense of grief.
As I write this, of course,
my thoughts and love are with the people of Gaza. We continue to apply pressure for a peaceful
resolution and a fair future for all Palestinians. -xx-
